I know many of the things I think about or write about would be in the deep end for most people. However, I have been considering a concept that even I find difficult to conceptualize.
Let’s start where this started for me. I was listening to my book on meeting my spirit guides. This book covers far more than just what the title suggests. The author was talking about a story regarding healing the past. Many of my books suggest that time does not exist on the other side. Even within our own three dimensional existence, science shows that time is relative (I.E. people in space age slower than on Earth). So if time is a human construct, how does that play into our history as individuals.
The author suggested that we have the ability to rewrite our past while in the present. This statement was synchronous to a comment I read while mindlessly scrolling through Facebook, “Past and Future do not exist, all that does is the present.” This comment then reminded me of a conversation I had with my co-worker Chad. He mentioned that there is a philosophy that believes that we have no past. It believes that every time we wake up, we are loaded with memories of a life that has led us to the present moment.
This philosophy is not something I personally subscribe to, but I do think that everything in this world has a shred of truth to it (especially religions and philosophies). The book suggested that we have the power to heal our past by choosing to remember it differently. The author mentioned that she did not have a close connection with her father. To heal from this, she chose to remember her past differently. She imagined that rather than her father not showing up, he did show up. After a few months, her father reached out to her and told her he wanted to reconnect and try to move forward with a real relationship.
This story had me question time and history. It’s completely true that we have the ability to chose a different history for ourselves. We cannot control that other people agree to this past. For instance, if I bullied someone else, I cannot choose for them to forgive me or believe me to be a different person. However, I can choose this for myself. I could remember these times differently and let that help influence who I am today which helps me in the present in my current interactions with people.
I think I also synced with this lesson because in high school I often felt like I had to be the person that everyone around me believed me to be based on what they knew me to be from the years before. However, the present is not defined by who we were. It’s defined by who we want to and choose to be. We can always change who we are, and it does not take time to do so.
There were moments in my past where I treated people poorly. I either shut people out of my life, or I acted foolishly which led to me being shut out of their lives. I do not know if this had an impact on these people or if its something only I hold onto. However, I have started to remember the past differently to try and heal myself and the others through my intentions. Maybe one day these people will come back into my life and I’ll look back at this moment as the catalyst.
