It has been a bit of time since I wrote about my path. Mostly because going through the audio of these sessions were pretty long. First, I want to talk about what I learned after my hypnotherapy sessions because they explain a few of my beliefs on the subject first. After my session, it was very challenging for me to believe what I just did. I read the Michael Newton books by this point, so I saw how profound hypnotherapy could be, but at the same time when reflecting on my own session, it seemed difficult for me to believe in.
It wasn’t until I was mowing my yard some weeks after my sessions did I understand. The idea of hypnotherapy is to say the first thing that comes to your mind without any judgment. It’s to just lay out your thoughts and then to review them later. It ties back into a post I did a while ago regarding creativity. I do strongly believe that creativity is world-building to some extent. When we compare thoughts to memories, sometimes your thoughts could be clearer than some actual memories. That is the power of imagination. A more radical and crazy thought of mine – what were to happen if our thoughts were a reality in some other existence? Or what if our thoughts all come from a different source? This is the idea that the brain is some sort of antenna and no thought originates from our brain at all.
I suppose it’s easy to go down the deep end with some weird thoughts, but that is where I was at with this hypnotherapy session. I think to some degree it could be garbled memories from a past life through a lens of a brain that doesn’t truly comprehend that life, or it could be the imagination constructing a fairy tale. Either way, to me these memories are alive and charged with power. Creativity should always be taken with some seriousness because as I have written a few times, there is always a degree of consciousness built into it which makes it important!
So anyway, this session was my past life regression. She walked me through about 30 minutes worth of relaxation meditation taking me through a forest to help me relax. Then she pushed me into space and across time to find a life that would relate to the life I was currently in.
Throughout the session, the therapist would continuously push me forward or back through the life I was living to understand what I was doing there. In my first life, I started at 28 years old wearing a robe in a meadow with yellow flowers. In this life, I traveled back to when I was younger hanging out inside of a stone house that had a pit for cooking. Then I went forward to 14 with some of my current friends and then I went forward to where Caitlyn and I were getting married at 33 in the forest.
After my wedding, I moved forward to when I was 42, but it was clear that this life was more industrial. When I was sent backward in this life, I found myself at 16 looking out into the ocean. It was a pretty big theme of this life. When moving back to 8, I realized that I was waiting for my brother to return from war. However, since he never did, my life seemed spent waiting just in case he ever returned. When I turned 19 in this life, I was at a party talking about what our goals were for the rest of our life (in that life). Fast forward again to when I was 24 and I was still looking to the ocean. At 26, I meet Caitlyn at a party and we once again get married at 33. When I am 44, I have two children and am on vacation with them. Then when I am 56, I am looking out at the ocean once again, content with my life.
When we move again, I once again find myself at 33 years old in my first life. This time I am preaching in a forum. Then when I am 46, I am teaching a bunch of students in the meadow that I was 28. When I turn 65, I am alone and reflecting on my life. It was a happy one that I was proud of. I die at 67. When I die, I am greeted by my family in this current life and Caitlyn is there. When reviewing my life, my guide is there and tells me some advice about the life I am currently living. He tells me I do not need to spend so much time on myself. Be ambitious and seek others out to grow and learn from one another.
A lot to unpack there. First off, this session was before I actually got married to Caitlyn and we had some pre-wedding issues that we were dealing with. I think my lives were telling me that even though we may not be together in this life, we were in past lives and we would always be connected. Of that, I was certain. I also do find it funny that both times we got married were at 33. I wonder why my brain did that.
I found the imagery of my industrial life pretty fascinating. I was always waiting and looking out to the ocean, and because of that, I was stuck in one place. Regardless of being stuck, I had a good fulfilling life.
When I flipped back to the original life, it focused more on me than my life with Caitlyn. It focused on me trying to be a teacher and by the time I died, I was alone. I did find my discussion with my guide pretty interesting, however, the advice wasn’t earth-shattering for me.
Overall, I enjoyed this experience. It showed me the importance of my scattered thoughts. When I mow the yard, take a warm shower, or drive a long distance and just let my brain go wild it has the opportunity to teach me based on my creative consciousness. I have seen this a few times with other people doing something similar without recognizing it as such. I suppose it really just had me embrace my creative mind as an opportunity to go internally and grow. Regardless if the above memories are true from a past life or not, it’s still a tool to help my mind play out concepts and ideas to help me learn. If anything that points more towards us being our best guides.
