This week I had noticed that I was developing a lot of stress headaches from straining my eyes. I have glasses, but I do not really wear them (and no, I do not wear contacts either). My eyesight is good enough where I can see everything I need to see but reading can be a challenge when in meetings. Additionally, just looking at things that are past my good range of vision over the course of an entire day can leave my eyes feeling exhausted. Not only that but this past week I was developing a neck pain/ migraine combo that just would not do. I told myself Wednesday evening that I should wear my glasses the next day.
Anyway, on Thursday, I was leaving my house to go to work, completely forgetting what I said to myself the night before. This is not uncommon. When it comes to my ritual to go to work I am notorious for forgetting everything that keeps me from just getting out the door. I forget lunches, I forget vitamins, I forget my watch, I forget everything. However, something inside of my head told me, ‘Hey, you should grab your glasses today. Let’s try not to have a migraine.’ So I went back inside and grabbed my glasses.
During the morning, while I was looking at my right computer monitor, my eyes drifted upward and I saw the TV in the break room. It was going on about the Coronavirus, but I found myself just blankly looking at the screen for about 5 seconds. This in itself is very uncommon for me, but the skeptic part of me will just say without my glasses, there is no point to ever look at the TV screen. Anyway, after spacing out for those 5 seconds, the little headliner section changed and all that was there said ‘Rob Wallace’. Another 3 seconds went by and that changed again.
Not only is it miraculous that my dad’s name even showed up on the news, but so many things had to line up perfectly for me to have been there in that exact moment getting a sign from my dad. Now, I know, the Rob Wallace on the news is not the same one as my dad. But, it doesn’t matter, this situation is too circumstantial for it to be a complete coincidence. I know I was meant to see that moment to have a connection with my dad.
All of these smaller events: my migraines getting worse and worse through the week, me deciding to take my glasses to work, my mind being distracted from my computer screen at the perfect timing, me fixating on the TV screen for the necessary amount of time, all happened perfectly so that I could see one name. That one moment filled me with awe that completely changed how I viewed my earlier moments.
It became a good reminder to me. I would have preferred to not have migraines because they were very annoying. At the same time, if it were not for them, I would have never looked for my glasses, and I would have missed out on a very special moment. Sometimes challenging moments in life have an interesting way of showing us that they were meant to be the whole time.
It does make me ponder whether or not I miss more things because I do not normally wear my glasses. Or is it possible that it does not matter, am I always seeing exactly what I need.
