Today I had a deep conversation with a co-worker about all of the stuff going on in my life. It was a nice check-up which allowed me to introspect a little more than I have been doing of late.
At work, I am forcing myself to slow down. I started to peel back my hours by 30 minutes starting a few weeks ago when I said to myself (and everyone around me), ‘I am leaving no later than 7 this week!’. Each week I took 30 minutes off and now I find myself leaving work at 5 PM. I think this is perfectly acceptable. I can already feel the benefits!
I have told myself that in lieu of seeking a degree next semester, I need to push myself with the same energy and fire I do while I am at work to learn and grow in areas outside of work. Because of that, I got my level 1 Reiki certification a few weeks ago! Additionally, I bought some stone carving tools so I could self teach myself how to chisel some blocks into art. and I am considering looking into doing pottery so I can go out and actually do art somewhere.
At work talking with this co-worker, I challenged myself more on if waiting on the degree is the correct approach. I know.. I know.. Just make up my mind already. The universe keeps telling me that I need to make the decision with no help from anyone but me. So I need to look internally to decipher what it is that I really want.
Still with this conversation with the co-worker, we both mentioned how we like being a ‘Jack of all Trades’. If I take a step back on everything, this is a nice affirmation to myself. But the question is why do I seek to be this Jack of all Trades? I think I recognized that the more skills I have, the more people I interact with and learn from. Based on any of my past posts, this is what fuels my ability to grow and why I have the drive to learn new skills.
Since I started coming home at 5 pm, I find myself with more time to enjoy life and to learn new skills. So far with my time, I have been accompanying Caitlyn to the gym to be her ‘assistant trainer’. I say assistant because she signed up in an app to have a real trainer, but that person is just someone that communicates via the app. There is not really any accountability for the trainee and this is the first time that Caitlyn has ever really weight trained so she is still learning proper technique and form. I realized my gratitude that I learned a lot of this in high school, both in PE and with knowledgeable friends for lacrosse practice. It is helping me coach Caitlyn through the different machines and muscle groups, and it reinforces that ‘I can always go back’ once I have obtained the knowledge about the topic.
I know that I must still have this skill down because one of the coaches from the gym walked over and told me I must be doing a good job because Caitlyn’s form on the benchpress was really good. He then said that I held myself in a ‘commanding presence’ and proceeded to ask me if I was in the service. I had to hold back a laugh because I do not think I at all appear to be fit enough for such remarks. Caitlyn and I speculate that he might have been checking to see if I was some sort of personal trainer. Maybe it might be against some sort of gym policy to have outside trainers come in. Even if that is the case, I guess I should be flattered that I look like I could be a trainer!
