It’s the first night in a very long time that insomnia hits me. However, it’s another night I find myself on the couch, which I’ve been doing since I’ve been back from vacation. The jet lag created a cycle that I have yet to break and I feel hot. Each night, I notice that I burn underneath a blanket.. and that’s not common. I feel sick, but I’m not. Or at least, it’s unclear that I’m not. My chest is tight, anxiety and stress grips at me and I don’t know why. The omens tell me to break patterns, but which ones.. there are too many to count. I feel lost with genuine uncertainty on how to begin to fix the issue. I don’t feel myself in the middle of a storm, but I feel myself prepared to take on a storm. Am I preparing myself for one to come? Or is my inner turmoil a sign that I found myself in the middle of a storm that I’m too oblivious to admit I am in?
Break my cycles. How do I start? Be the opposite of me.. maybe a cold shower will break the heat. Work less hours and give my mind space to not move. Take a mental health day. Breathe, exercise, meditate.
Yes. These will help. Let’s start here.
