I am not someone that dreams a whole lot. Of course, its been said that we all dream but maybe we just do not remember the dreams. So maybe it is just that I forget them quickly.
I always remember the story my ex told me about her father coming to her in a dream. I have since learned that these experiences are quite common, but back when I had this dream, it was new territory. Maybe this is why the dream was so impactful.
There is one dream that I cannot forget and it happened around the same time I saw my first rainbow after my dad passed.
In this dream, my dad was alive. But it was different. It was like we knew he died but yet for some reason he was back. Normalcy kicked in with my dream. Like he had been back for some time. My dad went and got fast food on the way home one day. This was something he did when we were younger and a lot of times we would tease him on the choice of food sometimes.
It wasn’t surprising that my mom and sister were teasing him a bit for picking up Taco Bell. However, something was off. My dad seemed upset or disappointed in himself. I remember that he didn’t say a single word the entire dream. Like maybe he was trapped in depression still. That was tough for me to see, and so I ran over to him, gave him a big hug, and just said “Don’t be silly! Dad went and got us dinner! He did great. Thanks dad. I love you.”
I heard him respond, “I love you too”. I turned to look up at him and all of a sudden I saw my dad shining as if he was made of golden light. His eyes were shining a bright blue and he was the happiest I had seen him in a long time.
The alarm went off exactly at that image of my dad shining down onto me. This felt like it was literally burned into my mind. It was almost like I had looked at the sun, and when I closed my eyes the image was still there. Something about that being the literal last thing in my dream right as my alarm went off allowed it to stay with me for all of this time. It was a gift.
I looked back to find the date. I dreamt this May 10th, 2018. That was 2 days after what would have been his birthday and also a little under the four month mark.
I still remember that image as if it was yesterday.
