Today was another spot on the full moon ceremony. I admit, the last one (The Sturgeon Moon), was not very interesting to me. I kind of resorted to doodling, which I think was something my mind needed at the time.
This week my mind has been off. I am working far too many hours (clear from my lack of blog posting) and I am starting to experience mental fatigue. The energy fueling me to get to the finish line has expired a month ago, and then since then, I was operating on adrenaline for concern that everything would stop if I did not. Now, things begin to become normal again and my mind is showing fatigue.
Yesterday, I chatted with Caitlyn about how I feel off. I can tell that a cycle of my life is coming to an end. I feel like I am tying up a lot of nice ending points to create the end of a chapter in my life book. I think my hypochondriac tenancies make me fear to some extent that this end of the chapter is the end of the book. This is a very common fear I go through, so I have concocted up beliefs in my mind that my body is unwell, and it feels very real to some extent. However, my rational brain recognizes this is very likely not the case. I know that the solution is to work less, and I am working to scale back those hours at a pace that my mind can accept.
I feel off. As synchronicity would have it, today is a full moon. Caitlyn told me about this ceremony and this morning I honestly was not interested before I left. However, the universe was not giving up on me. As I got to work, a co-worker mentioned that it was a full moon ceremony tonight, and she was considering attending. The universe seemed to be drawing me in, that this was an important moon ceremony to attend. The co-worker mentioned to me that she followed someone on Instagram that reminded her about the full moon ceremony, so I looked the page up. It mentioned the significance of this moon and astrology. It said ‘Sun in Virgo, Moon in Pisces. Virgo wants to be productive, Pisces wants to escape.’ It mentioned that Sagittarius is one of the signs that are more prone to this.
It hit me spot on, and I started to listen to the universe. I decided to make sure I attended tonight and keep my mind open.
I was very happy with what I learned. I learned the concept of split energies, which is when we think of one thing and then we tell ourselves the opposite is true.
Additionally, they mentioned reading about a scientific study about how we only are conscious 5% of the day, and the other 95% is not. This echoes a recent book I read The Biology of Belief. I like to hope that I am a little more mindful than that 5%.
I am unsure if I will altogether feel better because of this experience, but I know it is a start. I know I need to work harder at taking care of myself.
